i thunk a thought

today, a very rare and marvelous event occurred in my moderately boring life! i thunk a thought! a most wondrous thought. and this thought lead to other thoughts which had my brain spinning so fast i have a bit of motion sickness.

what was this thought, you might ask? do not fret, my dear, i will enlighten you.

i was sitting on my average sized bed in my average sized home in an average sized town listening to my ipod and pondering my somewhat boring life. as i lay there, a web of thought began to spin itself. i thought about all of those people in Haiti and all that they have suffered through in the past week. i thought about how sad it was that most of them are homeless and starving. and there i sat in my warm house, on my super comfy bed, listening to my ipod. it was then that i realized for the millionth time that i had forgotten how lucky i am.

i think so often i take for granted all that i have been given. the things i have. the things i wish i had. they don't matter. instead of being grateful for the working bodies and minds that we have, we compare ourselves to others and tear ourselves or each other down until there's nothing left and we feel small and insignificant. everyone is important to someone. everyone is needed. wanted. the people who think you're "weird" or whatever don't even matter. just remember that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. and.... sticks and stones can break your bones, but words will never hurt you.

then my web of thought turned towards the labels we all give each other. most, if not all of them, have negative connotations. as i walked around the halls of school yesterday, i looked at everyone and tried not to see their stereotype. i tried to see them. it was difficult to get past my previous judgements and just see the person behind the make-up or the hair or the ridiculous outfits to see the person inside. you'd be surprised at how many amazing people are out there if you'd only give them a chance. i have been guilty of passing judgements too quickly several times in my life. i only hope that i can become better at loving people for who they are.

so lets all be awesome to one another....

and that... is the cheesy thought of the day.

me loves...

this is not to be confused with the popular sean kingston song. if you don't know who sean kingston is, lucky you.
but all of that is besides the point.
let's get down to business...

MEN.

love them or hate them, you cannot help but be attracted to them.
here's a little list i put together of the top 10 males i cannot help but be attracted to (in no particular order):

Zac Efron.

admit it, you almost died when you saw him in the first high school musical and he made your heart go pitter patter. then when 17 again came out. i nearly died. i think i had a panic attack and stopped breathing. you go zac, you go.

Johnny Depp.

oh johnny... this man is a dream. he is an amazing actor and can be anyone with any personality. he's so talented and his face is great too. double whammy! cha-ching!

Ben Affleck.

he's just nice to look at.

Chace Crawford.

never actually watched anything with this man in it. so i cannot tell you about his acting skills. but i can tell you that he is nice looking and that he was the bachelor of the year for 2009 in People Magazine. mmmhmmm...

Elvis Presley.

ohhh this man. Elvis Presley. his music. his voice. his smile. his dancing. how i wish i would have been alive during his time!

Tim McGraw.

dearest timmy. i grew up listening to this man on the radio in my sisters cars and just around the house. love his music and his voice. he is also a really great guy. now that's quality.

Nate Ruess.

this man also sings. the best songs in the world! lead singer of fun and the format, two of my favorite bands. it might be his voice that makes me so attracted to him, but nevertheless, he is attractive.

Ryan Gosling.

i first saw this man in the movie Remember the Titans. he was not so great looking in the movie. kinda awkward and just weird. then The Notebook comes out and he has the cutest lines ever and i just fell in love. "When I see something I like I gotta have it." "if you're a bird, i'm a bird" instant love!

George Clooney.

given. :)

Brad Pitt.

always loved this man. his movies are great and he's got some nice abs.

one down, several more to go...

as many of you know, i am extremely aichmophobic, meaning i have a great fear of needles. this is a major problem seeing as one of my new years goals is to give my blood to someone who needs it. today, i finally overcame that fear and got the chance to donate. i am so excited that i was able to do it and i look forward to donating my blood again in the future.

i still have several more goals for this new year and i hope that i can continue to achieve more of them!

and so it begins...

hello world.
i suppose this is the part where i tell you about my amazing, adventure-filled life.

i'm sorry to inform you that my life is far from adventure-filled. i attend an average high school. full of your average jocks, preps, emos, goths, nerds, cheerleaders, and people who like me who wander the halls without a label. or at least a label that i am aware of... i have teachers i loathe, teachers i adore, and teachers that i tolerate. hard classes. difficult classes. simple classes. classes that make me so stressed i swear they are the reason for my thin hair.

i live in a world without morals, good word choice, or respect. And worse, we're losing our good music and turning to this weird mixture of rap crap and just badly written songs. What ever happened to poetic music that actually meant something other than, "let's get busy" or "i'm angry and it's everyone else's fault". I cannot stand cookie-cutter pop songs (unless it's 'NSYNC). I swear if i hear another Taylor Swift song... i might have a seizure and die. don't get my wrong, she's pretty and her voice is awesome, props to her, but ALL of her music is EXACTLY the same. bahhh. okay, i'm done...

lucky for me, i have the best friends a girl could ask for and an extremely loving family that make all of that bearable. They are all so wonderful and they have personalities that never fail to put a smile on my face every day. I don't know where i would be without them. probably a high school drop-out, on drugs, pregnant, and living under a park bench, playing the harmonica for tips. that is not a bright future. thank goodness i have them!

my name is Madison Beck.