osh kosh b'gosh!

oh gosh.
it's finally spring time!!
i've been so anxious for it to come! and now it's finally here!
this last weekend was so fun! i got to play with friends OUTSIDE! and my family came over on sunday and i got to swing with one of my nieces on the swings! she is the cutest thing ever! i couldn't help taking a picture. she knows a little sign language and she can tell you in sign that she wants to swing. little Ada is beautiful and so smart! i'm so proud :]
spring is here.
and you know what that means?
SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE!
and you know what that means...
late nights. sunshine, blessed sunshine. playing outside. family time. rodeos (which means cowboys). shorts. watermelon. picnics. snoasis. ugly pictures. inside jokes. ninja (webbie please remember!). fireworks. skinned knees. jumping rope. bikes. messy hair. sidewalk chalk. sunglasses. swimming. green! everything! everywhere! AH! flowers. going out for a walk. best friends. acting like a little kid. making music videos that no one will EVER see. hiking. the format. my sunroof always open.
and most of all...
NO SCHOOL!!

overall, summer just means that i will be unbelievably happy. i am just so happy to be living right now. i love this time of year and just everything about my life right now.

sure, i have some trials, but i also have the best family and friends to get me through those.

i feel truly blessed.

until next time,

madisonbeck

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh dear.
just signed up for my senior year.
and i keep changing things.
i've been sitting here for 45 minutes trying to figure out my future.
stress.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel as if i might explode.
which classes should i take?
how many distance learning classes can one woman take and actually PASS them.
i worry.
will i be able to pay attention to a screen?
is 3 too many?
should i take normal english instead of the college writing?
good gravy, i'm probably screwed.
help?

"why is a raven like a writing desk?"

last night, i went to the midnight showing of Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland.
i went with Rhett, Joe, Christian, and Chris. oh what a night...
due to a snow storm from satan's home, i didnt get home until 3:40am.
but none of that matters...

i had been waiting so long to see that movie. i spent the last week of my life reading the books carefully. i found myself falling deeply in love with the characters and the idea of escaping reality to a land where the impossible are everyday occurrences.

i absolutely LOVED the movie.
the march hare and the mad hatter were easily my favorite characters. mostly because they are insane and wonderfully funny. also, the chesire cat. mostly because of his grin and gorgeous eyes. i'm jealous, to say the least.

i approve wholeheartedly.

that is all.

madisonbeck

mood swing.

i found a new hobby.
biking.
i cannot tell you how exhilarating it was. riding down the hills, wind in my hair, sun on my face, cardigan flapping in the breeze.
sooo nice.
i loved it.
i feel like everything is beautiful.
i'm so content with the world.
yes, biking is my new best friend.

closure.

this is real.
it happened.
i'm coping.
i know where he is.
i know what he's doing.
it's alright.
i'll see him soon.

i love you, Grandpa.