holy moley. me? oh my...

reflecting.
thinking.
here it goes...

emotions = mixed.beaten...puree-d?
pretty much all of the options you can find on a blender...
it's like the little Roxyberry in my head went crazy and threw in bits of happiness and life-is-not-all-bad and then thought they'd add a little sadness and why-is-this-happening-to-me for flavor.

bittersweet. or should i say sweetbitter...

today started out alright and then, like a bird seeking warmth, it went south. bookin it like there was no tomorrow. but i suppose that is life. we've gotta push the negative aside, smile, and hope for a better tomorrow.

it just seems like there's not a soul in this world that isn't just looking for personal gain. people may claim that they are completely self-less, gracious, giving, and thoughtful. but the truth is, that most people are jerks. i have found myself involved in this. someone will text or call you and the first thing in your head is "oh crap! think of an excuse... think of an excuse...". i got a taste of my own medicine today. it hurts. knowing when someone makes excuses or picks others over you. if we ever once sat down and thought about how we make others feel instead of what our friends are doing and what hot boy is going to be there, we would probably think and act differently. and that's what i'm going to do. think and act differently.

also, of equal importance...

i want to know who the jerk is that invented "normal". i bet you i could find a few weird things about him. in fact, he's probably nothing but a sack full o' weird and we're all just falling into his trap.

that is all.